When you look in the mirror you see your reflection, and one thing I noticed is we never like our reflections. Maybe its because they show things we don't want to see, illusions hide flaws but mirrors show us the facts to our face. One minute we're beautiful our emotions elated, the next spiraling down in our own feelings. Its funny to see how much we change within minutes.
Today is the first day of December, you know what's this month? Christmas. The biggest money grab in the world. Honestly, I would be content with just having my family and friends around, but no - everything seems to depend on gifts now. Which makes me sad, when I was little I was happy with just getting bubble bath from the dollar store as a present. I knew that we didn't have money so I never asked for anything expensive, so when I see my sister demanding and expecting expensive things I tend to cringe. I know my parents can't deal with that disappointment that my sister has every year.
I was talking with my friends yesterday. We had went on a walk to a small diner near our school, missing out on a period of class. But, to be honest I needed the break. We talked about many things, things that were bothering all of us. Which made me grateful for the fact that Rodney and Alex continue to be there for me when I need them. So we started talking, and decided on making plans to go on a trip next year to Edmonton to Canada's largest mall. We're setting it in November to get Christmas shopping out of the way. That'll be exciting I figure, itd nice that we can make plans like this when we want to.
Then we came to a new topic, living some where. Alex's parents have a house they're renting out at the moment, and the people that currently live there, their lease ends in February. So we're thinking of renting the house and living there away from our parents. We can do our work, and split rent money. I think it'd be good to be away from the stressful time we're having at the moment. Both Rodney and Alex want to do it, and I'm all for it too. Alex thinks that the rent is probably $500, which between the three of us is $167 per person a month. That's a reasonable price, specially for a student and whatever is left over will be going into food money. So hopefully we get this place.
I'm not mentioning these plans to my parents until I have a definite price on rent, and when the leases ends. But I have my fingers crossed. Sure it'll be a 16, 17 and 18 year old living together, but I don't think it matters if we can provide for ourselves. Its time to grow up from depending on mommy and daddy. I know they'll fight with me when I tell them my intentions but they can't stop me. With me out of the house my mom won't be getting my baby bonus anymore.. Which is pretty sweet to be honest. I'm tired of her getting money for me every month and it never contributes to something for my sister or I. No, its usually put into paying her debt off and it annoys me.
Another thing, she wanted me out of the house anyways so that she could be free from having to pay for my schooling. Which I find a little outrageous. When I was little she used to say 'I'd take a loan against my mortgage to make sure you got the proper education' Now it's 'get out of my house. I expect you to go to college or university, but you're paying from your pockets.' Which I find stupid, what kind of initiative is that to give someone? I rather not go to college and work full time, without having to be in debt. After all, debt does not sound appealing.
Regardless, I take my first step in the world.
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