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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Thoughts
When you look in the mirror you see your reflection, and one thing I noticed is we never like our reflections. Maybe its because they show things we don't want to see, illusions hide flaws but mirrors show us the facts to our face. One minute we're beautiful our emotions elated, the next spiraling down in our own feelings. Its funny to see how much we change within minutes.
Today is the first day of December, you know what's this month? Christmas. The biggest money grab in the world. Honestly, I would be content with just having my family and friends around, but no - everything seems to depend on gifts now. Which makes me sad, when I was little I was happy with just getting bubble bath from the dollar store as a present. I knew that we didn't have money so I never asked for anything expensive, so when I see my sister demanding and expecting expensive things I tend to cringe. I know my parents can't deal with that disappointment that my sister has every year.
I was talking with my friends yesterday. We had went on a walk to a small diner near our school, missing out on a period of class. But, to be honest I needed the break. We talked about many things, things that were bothering all of us. Which made me grateful for the fact that Rodney and Alex continue to be there for me when I need them. So we started talking, and decided on making plans to go on a trip next year to Edmonton to Canada's largest mall. We're setting it in November to get Christmas shopping out of the way. That'll be exciting I figure, itd nice that we can make plans like this when we want to.
Then we came to a new topic, living some where. Alex's parents have a house they're renting out at the moment, and the people that currently live there, their lease ends in February. So we're thinking of renting the house and living there away from our parents. We can do our work, and split rent money. I think it'd be good to be away from the stressful time we're having at the moment. Both Rodney and Alex want to do it, and I'm all for it too. Alex thinks that the rent is probably $500, which between the three of us is $167 per person a month. That's a reasonable price, specially for a student and whatever is left over will be going into food money. So hopefully we get this place.
I'm not mentioning these plans to my parents until I have a definite price on rent, and when the leases ends. But I have my fingers crossed. Sure it'll be a 16, 17 and 18 year old living together, but I don't think it matters if we can provide for ourselves. Its time to grow up from depending on mommy and daddy. I know they'll fight with me when I tell them my intentions but they can't stop me. With me out of the house my mom won't be getting my baby bonus anymore.. Which is pretty sweet to be honest. I'm tired of her getting money for me every month and it never contributes to something for my sister or I. No, its usually put into paying her debt off and it annoys me.
Another thing, she wanted me out of the house anyways so that she could be free from having to pay for my schooling. Which I find a little outrageous. When I was little she used to say 'I'd take a loan against my mortgage to make sure you got the proper education' Now it's 'get out of my house. I expect you to go to college or university, but you're paying from your pockets.' Which I find stupid, what kind of initiative is that to give someone? I rather not go to college and work full time, without having to be in debt. After all, debt does not sound appealing.
Regardless, I take my first step in the world.
Today is the first day of December, you know what's this month? Christmas. The biggest money grab in the world. Honestly, I would be content with just having my family and friends around, but no - everything seems to depend on gifts now. Which makes me sad, when I was little I was happy with just getting bubble bath from the dollar store as a present. I knew that we didn't have money so I never asked for anything expensive, so when I see my sister demanding and expecting expensive things I tend to cringe. I know my parents can't deal with that disappointment that my sister has every year.
I was talking with my friends yesterday. We had went on a walk to a small diner near our school, missing out on a period of class. But, to be honest I needed the break. We talked about many things, things that were bothering all of us. Which made me grateful for the fact that Rodney and Alex continue to be there for me when I need them. So we started talking, and decided on making plans to go on a trip next year to Edmonton to Canada's largest mall. We're setting it in November to get Christmas shopping out of the way. That'll be exciting I figure, itd nice that we can make plans like this when we want to.
Then we came to a new topic, living some where. Alex's parents have a house they're renting out at the moment, and the people that currently live there, their lease ends in February. So we're thinking of renting the house and living there away from our parents. We can do our work, and split rent money. I think it'd be good to be away from the stressful time we're having at the moment. Both Rodney and Alex want to do it, and I'm all for it too. Alex thinks that the rent is probably $500, which between the three of us is $167 per person a month. That's a reasonable price, specially for a student and whatever is left over will be going into food money. So hopefully we get this place.
I'm not mentioning these plans to my parents until I have a definite price on rent, and when the leases ends. But I have my fingers crossed. Sure it'll be a 16, 17 and 18 year old living together, but I don't think it matters if we can provide for ourselves. Its time to grow up from depending on mommy and daddy. I know they'll fight with me when I tell them my intentions but they can't stop me. With me out of the house my mom won't be getting my baby bonus anymore.. Which is pretty sweet to be honest. I'm tired of her getting money for me every month and it never contributes to something for my sister or I. No, its usually put into paying her debt off and it annoys me.
Another thing, she wanted me out of the house anyways so that she could be free from having to pay for my schooling. Which I find a little outrageous. When I was little she used to say 'I'd take a loan against my mortgage to make sure you got the proper education' Now it's 'get out of my house. I expect you to go to college or university, but you're paying from your pockets.' Which I find stupid, what kind of initiative is that to give someone? I rather not go to college and work full time, without having to be in debt. After all, debt does not sound appealing.
Regardless, I take my first step in the world.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
I apparently have a fear of the unknown as my dream told me. I was going into this chocolate warehouse, and paused for a moment. The place looked Gothic, and frightening to me. Not to mention, it was dark. Very dark. So I walked towards the gate slowly, and then noticed other people were going inside too. But these people were your a-typical monsters, like werewolves and zombies, etc. So I stood there silently watching them go by and then I pushed my way in through the gate too, because something must of been going on for that many people to so excited.
But my fear continued to rise, just like a movie has that bad, dun dun dun music. So I walk along this elegant stone path and notice something - My friend TJ! I stare for a few minutes confused on how he got there. But, I guess he wanted to see this warehouse thing too! So we're both standing there staring at each other for a few minutes almost awkwardly before he starts conversation saying I look very pretty, and what type of 'monster' am I.
Well, I look down at my clothing then up at him, and joke saying, "Beautiful and pale, I suppose that leaves one option, Vampire." Which made him smile at me, so we walked together towards the door, but neither of us wanted to open the door or go inside so we'd watch others stream along inside, excitement at its highest. Or rather, fear. It seemed no different, some people that walked by looked like they didn't want to be here but were for their friends. I had been the stupid one to go here, but then luckily meet a friend. My heart was racing and I glanced up at TJ, and motioned to go inside, he merely nodded his head and gave me a confident smile that eased back some of the frigid fear I had.
Entering the warehouse, it appeared to be a large mansion, kind of like the one from House on Haunted Hill. So I'm peering around, my eyes taking in everything, before I notice a lot of us are being ushered into the basement of the place. I silently walk, and look around as I do so. The place is beautiful, and upscale, but there's something wrong with the place and I can't explain what but it scares me. Its like that feeling you get before a math test you know you haven't studied for. It sucks. I glanced around nervously, TJ gripping my hand, but I know I'm holding his tenfold to what he's holding mine. Sowly we ascend into the basement, and strangely enough it looks like a normal basement. Some of my friends are milling around drinking punch and others are sitting on the couches around the room talking among themselves.
I peer about, then tip my head to the side and ask my friend Randa, where the 'challenge' is, and her face goes pale. She looks at me like she's frightened, her whole body quivers and I instantly regret it. But, regardless she laeds me to a hallway, and I look around. The door are closed expect for one that is half open that leads into a deeper subsection of the basement. I don't know what to say or where to go, so I back away. The hallways had the lights on, then the flights flicker and go out. Fear grips me harder than before and I whirl away dragging TJ out of that hallway. because I'm scared. Scared of the unknown.
So I get out of the hallway back into the main room of the basement where my friends are hanging out, and I looked terrified. My eyes are wide, and I'm staring around. My friends don't notice, but Tj pulls me closer to comfort me. Then I spot someone else, Colin! He looks at me worried, and hurries over questioning me. Then I find out he hasn't went through the challenge either, and he asks if he can come with us. I swallow my fear and try to smile, Colin grins back at me saying 'That's the Larissa I know! Come on oh fearless leader.' I just blush at that, and turn from my friend, pulling Tj along once more. Little do I notice my other friends have followed me. So we reach the hall, and the lights are dim. Randa touches my upper arm and frowns.
"Whatever you do, don't go into the sub-basement. No ones come back from down there." I take this warning very seriously, and nod my head suddenly losing my courage. This sucks, you know? Then this guy comes down the hallway, and he looks impatient.
"Are you going to pick a door, jeez..." I stare around then notice a door wit a unicorn drawing on it. Obviously there's nothing menacing with that, its has to be a child's room right? So I open he door first, and bite back a scream. A balloon had went up from the door, I enter the room and peer around. There's barely any light, just this faint light from the corner like night light shining a red glow over everything. It a child's room. I look unhappy now, and the man that lead us in the room sits down on the bed and talks. I look scared shitless because the blankets he's on start moving, and I could see something crawling around under them. Stepping back I noticed a stuffed bunny doll, and picked it up. The thing looked evil, with red glowing eyes and everything. I'm lost looking at it but then peer up when I notice TJ is crawling behind a bookcase, I'm confused on why. I glance at Colin and he shrugs. The guy on the bed is still talking but I'm catching what he's saying now.
"The children love playing hide-and-seek. If you can beat them in a game of it then you pass this round." But of course it was strange to me, who was the children? There were no children in the room. I glance around looking confused and then ask a stupid question.
"Who are we finding, ourselves? Because, you know that's kind of... way too easy?" For that question I got a dirty look and told to hide.
Then, I woke up.
But my fear continued to rise, just like a movie has that bad, dun dun dun music. So I walk along this elegant stone path and notice something - My friend TJ! I stare for a few minutes confused on how he got there. But, I guess he wanted to see this warehouse thing too! So we're both standing there staring at each other for a few minutes almost awkwardly before he starts conversation saying I look very pretty, and what type of 'monster' am I.
Well, I look down at my clothing then up at him, and joke saying, "Beautiful and pale, I suppose that leaves one option, Vampire." Which made him smile at me, so we walked together towards the door, but neither of us wanted to open the door or go inside so we'd watch others stream along inside, excitement at its highest. Or rather, fear. It seemed no different, some people that walked by looked like they didn't want to be here but were for their friends. I had been the stupid one to go here, but then luckily meet a friend. My heart was racing and I glanced up at TJ, and motioned to go inside, he merely nodded his head and gave me a confident smile that eased back some of the frigid fear I had.
Entering the warehouse, it appeared to be a large mansion, kind of like the one from House on Haunted Hill. So I'm peering around, my eyes taking in everything, before I notice a lot of us are being ushered into the basement of the place. I silently walk, and look around as I do so. The place is beautiful, and upscale, but there's something wrong with the place and I can't explain what but it scares me. Its like that feeling you get before a math test you know you haven't studied for. It sucks. I glanced around nervously, TJ gripping my hand, but I know I'm holding his tenfold to what he's holding mine. Sowly we ascend into the basement, and strangely enough it looks like a normal basement. Some of my friends are milling around drinking punch and others are sitting on the couches around the room talking among themselves.
I peer about, then tip my head to the side and ask my friend Randa, where the 'challenge' is, and her face goes pale. She looks at me like she's frightened, her whole body quivers and I instantly regret it. But, regardless she laeds me to a hallway, and I look around. The door are closed expect for one that is half open that leads into a deeper subsection of the basement. I don't know what to say or where to go, so I back away. The hallways had the lights on, then the flights flicker and go out. Fear grips me harder than before and I whirl away dragging TJ out of that hallway. because I'm scared. Scared of the unknown.
So I get out of the hallway back into the main room of the basement where my friends are hanging out, and I looked terrified. My eyes are wide, and I'm staring around. My friends don't notice, but Tj pulls me closer to comfort me. Then I spot someone else, Colin! He looks at me worried, and hurries over questioning me. Then I find out he hasn't went through the challenge either, and he asks if he can come with us. I swallow my fear and try to smile, Colin grins back at me saying 'That's the Larissa I know! Come on oh fearless leader.' I just blush at that, and turn from my friend, pulling Tj along once more. Little do I notice my other friends have followed me. So we reach the hall, and the lights are dim. Randa touches my upper arm and frowns.
"Whatever you do, don't go into the sub-basement. No ones come back from down there." I take this warning very seriously, and nod my head suddenly losing my courage. This sucks, you know? Then this guy comes down the hallway, and he looks impatient.
"Are you going to pick a door, jeez..." I stare around then notice a door wit a unicorn drawing on it. Obviously there's nothing menacing with that, its has to be a child's room right? So I open he door first, and bite back a scream. A balloon had went up from the door, I enter the room and peer around. There's barely any light, just this faint light from the corner like night light shining a red glow over everything. It a child's room. I look unhappy now, and the man that lead us in the room sits down on the bed and talks. I look scared shitless because the blankets he's on start moving, and I could see something crawling around under them. Stepping back I noticed a stuffed bunny doll, and picked it up. The thing looked evil, with red glowing eyes and everything. I'm lost looking at it but then peer up when I notice TJ is crawling behind a bookcase, I'm confused on why. I glance at Colin and he shrugs. The guy on the bed is still talking but I'm catching what he's saying now.
"The children love playing hide-and-seek. If you can beat them in a game of it then you pass this round." But of course it was strange to me, who was the children? There were no children in the room. I glance around looking confused and then ask a stupid question.
"Who are we finding, ourselves? Because, you know that's kind of... way too easy?" For that question I got a dirty look and told to hide.
Then, I woke up.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Little blurb
I haven't said much of anything lately. But I've been thinking a lot, none stop in fact. Its strange to have my mind moved from its haitsu like state to constant use. The more I think the worse my mood becomes, I can't even explain it. Its like having a dark cloud over you, that gets darker with every passing moment. All I've been able to do lately is read, sleep, eat and do my school work. Nothing else seems to hold any interest for me. I don't know if that makes me sad. Last night I drank at my aunt's house. I must of had at least eight glasses of wine, not to mention some vodka. When I started drinking everything held a strange allure, I was with family at the time. But when my mom left I admitted how I felt to my aunt.
I let out things I had been holding in from even ten years ago. I didn't want to tell anyone any of them, but when I drink I feel insecure and tend to run my mouth. For the past couple months I have watched my family do nothing but yell and tear each other down with out even a seconds thought, and I've been my mother's diary. But - Who does the diary talk to? I had no one to speak to and then having that wine made me think some, although I don't particularly remember what I had been thinking.
I let out things I had been holding in from even ten years ago. I didn't want to tell anyone any of them, but when I drink I feel insecure and tend to run my mouth. For the past couple months I have watched my family do nothing but yell and tear each other down with out even a seconds thought, and I've been my mother's diary. But - Who does the diary talk to? I had no one to speak to and then having that wine made me think some, although I don't particularly remember what I had been thinking.
Monday, November 22, 2010
So I said I'd post some ideas. But I wanted to think over where these ideas come from. I can watch a movie or anime, and it seems like something turns on in my mind if the program gives any creative leeway to it. Take for example the anime Bleach by Tite Kubo. There could be so many other stories from that series, so many other lives he hasn't covered. And imagine, if Asia has the soul society then where does the other continents go? A penny for the thought none the less. But things that let you think of things such as this and come up with theories are always the best in writing.
I started reading the series Vampire Academy. I like the series a lot but it doesn't motivate me. Maybe I'm just losing my spark with writing? But then I thought about this morning, if I wanted to I could aspire to be like Dean Koontz or John Saul. Two of my favourite authors.
Her skin was silken to the touch, perfection in the form of a young woman. She had luscious golden locks that fell to her hips in a gentle flowing wave. Her eyes are what drew me in though, the large doe eyed look that held such a pure innocence. She may of had the body of a goddess but she had the soul of the child. The burning in my chest was starting to swell up in a storm of emotion. I just knew it, she was the one. The person I had been hunting for, the perfect canvas.
I started reading the series Vampire Academy. I like the series a lot but it doesn't motivate me. Maybe I'm just losing my spark with writing? But then I thought about this morning, if I wanted to I could aspire to be like Dean Koontz or John Saul. Two of my favourite authors.
Her skin was silken to the touch, perfection in the form of a young woman. She had luscious golden locks that fell to her hips in a gentle flowing wave. Her eyes are what drew me in though, the large doe eyed look that held such a pure innocence. She may of had the body of a goddess but she had the soul of the child. The burning in my chest was starting to swell up in a storm of emotion. I just knew it, she was the one. The person I had been hunting for, the perfect canvas.
The first post!
Okay, so this blog is dedicated to any random stuff I have to say. Mostly rambles about my writings and poems I may want to post at later dates. You will find an array of things on this blog maybe pertaining to things you need to know. I am a writer, and this is my blog. I stand for today and hope to give dreams to the future.
A writer's mind is always working.
A writer's mind is always working.
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